The Fight: No More Darkness

Saturday, January 31, 2009

No More Darkness

I changed the looks of my blog as you can well see. I did it for a reason. Something in me is changing, not just physically but also spiritually. I am not saying that what was inside of me was dark, but when I looked at the dark color of my blog it suddenly felt ... well, repressive. I am on a journey of freedom, freedom from addiction. Addiction is a physical issue that has deep spiritual roots. The Bible says that in Christ there is no darkness. The darkness of my blog needed to change to reflect that very thing.
I had an awesome day today. I walk 5.8 miles with a lot of ups and downs. My great friend Tim and I went out Geacaching (http://www.geocaching.com/). As we huffed and puffed up and down the trails all I could think about was what this was going to be like 150 pounds lighter!!! I can't wait.

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Sharon Ellis (Mom)February 1, 2009 at 8:39 AM
I really like the new look on your blog and a cute picture of Lisa. With a 150 pounds lighter you will be running up and down those trails...
Granite Mt Fire Lookout Tower will be a easy 4 miles up for you.
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My Story

Here is what I have come to finally admit, I am addicted to food. I am starting this journey weighing more then I ever had before, 391. Yep three hundred and ninty one pounds. You can check out my best Biggest Loser pose in the pictures. I alway knew I was big but like some people who look in the mirror and say, "I am fat." I can look in the mirror and not see how big I really am. I have dieted off and on so many time. I have lost 50 pounds, 60 pounds, 80 pounds, 30 and 40 pounds and just like most everyone I gained it all back and more. For the last year or so with the help of my wife Lisa, I have been considering getting the lap band surgery. I remember the free seminar we went to, "No way!". Surgery was to drastic and not for me. But I was challenged about my weight and lost 70 pounds with Isagenix. I gained 80 or so back. A couple of months ago Lisa and I decided it was time to do something drastic. Something had to change. I was diagnosed with diabetes, I have to use a C-PAP machine at night because I have sever sleep apnea, and I am taking medicine to control my cholesterol. I started talking to people I know who have had the Lap Band surgery. It worked and they loved it. More research and I decided that this was something that I needed to do. Something has to change.

The process. Two weeks before the surgery you start a liquid diet. The liquid diet continues for four weeks after to let your system adapt to the change that has been made. After the surgery my stomach will be the size of an egg. This means that my whole outlook on food has to change. As I said, I am addicted to food. My liquid diet is actually a fast and my prayer is that God will break the addiction in my life. When thus fast period is over I will not see food as the center of all that I do but a peripheral in my life. I won't stop at fast food places just because I can and want to. I don't want to ever have to fight that desire again. After the four week liquid diet I can start soft foods and then regular foods but my meal size will be 2 to 4oz. But with a new outlook on food, eating that little won't be a big deal.

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Saturday, January 31, 2009

No More Darkness

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