Pizza, oh Pepperoni Pizza....

This has been a really busy week which is why I have not blogged in a few days, sorry about that. Actually the last few days have been great, busy, but great. Even the over powering smell of pepperoni pizza, as good as it smelled, didn't make me want to go back. I am looking forward to the new challenges that are ahead of me. I know when I start eating my weight lose will change and that's ok. My goal is to lose 12 pounds a month. In the past 39 days I have lost 53 pounds, that's a little more then a pound a day so I think 12 pounds a month should not be a problem. I am looking forward to it. Today I was walking through REI just dreaming about the sports and activities I will be able to do. I can't wait to do some climbing, I can't wait to go biking. A whole new world is about to open up for me...

Lisa laughed at me today

Can you believe it!!!! Ha ha, I was coming out of the bathroom smiling because I lost almost 2 pounds from yesterday and she says with this big smirk, "I thought you were only going to weigh yourself every three or four days? You have been on that scale everyday!" Ah shoot, I guess I have and I did say that I was only going to weigh every three or four days but dang, that's hard. I was on the dreaded plateau and I just wanted to see it break. I made it for awhile just weighing every couple of days because it was so discouraging to see no movement on the scale but now, well, now it's exciting again! So I deserved to be laughed at and it was a good thing because hey, I lost another 2 pounds which means I am down 51 pounds since I started my liquid diet/fast Jan 20th, right on!

Learning Curve

I am a week out from being able to eat again and last night I had a "test" run. Now, I am not the type who has to make everyone around me suffer because of what I am going through. I am on a liquid diet but that does not mean that I can't enjoy the time I have with friends when there is food involved. Honestly, having someone eat food while I am sitting there drinking soup broth doesn't bother me. So, last night Lisa and I went to dinner with another couple that I hope we become really close friends with. Where did we go? To the restaurant that is the epitome of portion control, Claim Jumpers! I ordered a cup of chicken tortia soup, broth only. It was thick and it was yummy. As I was eating I realized that I was about half way done with the cup and I was not filling full. "That was odd" I thought, "I should be filling full" and as I sat there thinking about it I realized that I had been so involved with the conversation that I was eating to fast. Any food addict knows that if you want to eat a lot of something that taste good you eat fast because you can get more in before your stuffed, that's how I normally ate. Sitting at the table I made a decision, I wasn't going to eat anymore and boy let me tell you, I am glad I did. I put my napkin over the cup and pushed it away and about 2 minutes later it hit me, I was stuffed, seriously full. Lisa and I talked about it on the way home. I am going to have to really think about how I am eating when I am eating in able to form new eating habits. With the band you have to chew your food really good or your food can get stuck, not good I am told. You have to eat slowly and make sure you don't eat to much. Last night was a great reminder for me that I have a large learning curve ahead and that I still have some major changes to make. One last note, I finally broke 330!!! I hit the scale at 329 this morning, it's going to be a good day!

Driving my Addiction

I have been on this liquid diet for 4 and 1/2 weeks now, I am looking forward to being able to chew!!! A lot has changed for me which was desperately needed if I am going to be successful in not only my weight lose but in maintaining that weight lose. At first when I would think about eating only 4 to 6 ounces it was hard to imagine, I mean shoot, that's nothing. I used to be able to put away two chicken breasts and whatever else was offered. Now, when I can start eating again, I will flatten out one chicken breast, cook it on the George Foreman and that will be at least 4, maybe 5 meals. Wow, that's not much. But with the new way of thinking about food, who cares, I don't need two chicken breasts. I only need what is necessary to fuel my body. I don't have to have food anymore. It is a very freeing experience when you look at it that way. When I would go to a party or a function, there was always food. I didn't just get some of it, I got a lot of it, a few plates at least and then excuses to travel by the food table to get more. I don't have to do that any more. My addiction was driving me, now, I am driving my addiction. Every morning I get up and ask God to continue this change that is taking place inside of me. Every morning I thank Him that He is working in me and releasing me in this new freedom. God never said life would be easy and He never promised me tomorrow. Jesus said not to worry about tomorrow because today has enough problems of it's own! So true. No, tomorrow is not guaranteed but what He did promise, is that He would be there with me every step of the way.

Look Only If You Want

The thing about this blog, I have had to be pretty honest. You see, I teach people how to deal with bad images in their minds because of what they see in their job. Believe me, we see some pretty bad stuff. Now, if you decide to look, I am going to subject you to “some pretty bad stuff”. So if you want to see my newest Biggest Loser Pose scroll down and look under the Daily Weight Lose Chart.

The Dreaded Plateau

I know that looking at the daily weight lose section it shows that I have lost 3 pounds in the last 5 days. That is good and for sure nothing to complain about but I have to be honest, I am frustrated. I am not sure if it should be aimed toward my scale or at me. I few days ago the scale said 336 and then 333 and then 335 and then today 333.8, I hit… The Plateau… it’s a dreaded word in the weight lose world. That time period where you are tested in your resolve to lose weight. There have been many times over the years where I would hit this place and give in after a few days because I was frustrated. Losing weight is like a rush, you get excited, working out becomes easier, what your eating becomes acceptable and the scale keeps moving and then… The Plateau… I hate the plateau!!! Well, I am here… The Plateau… I have been feeling more and more frustrated. Suddenly the thought of two more weeks of liquid diet is dreadful. I really want to be able to eat something. But I can’t, I won’t. My resolve is being tested and I just simply am not going to give in. It’s hard but I have enough experiences with plateau’s to know that they will eventually break. It has been fun throwing my 4XL shirts into the Goodwill Pile because they are too big for me. It has been fun being able to walk longer and not get winded, to go snowshoeing. To hear the incredible encouraging comments from those of you who are reading my blog. Frustrated? Yes, but I still can’t wait for the after picture of holding up my size 56 pants.

More Small Victories

Today I went snowshoeing and it was awesome. Walking through the forest with a light snow falling. Up hills and down hills and I did great. All the walking I have been doing sure helped but so did losing the 40 some pounds I have lost. I put my winter jacket on that I have not worn in a really long time and it zipped up. So cool. I know it sounds silly but being able to wear clothes you have not worn in forever sure makes you feel good.